i'm serious about the Colson, just let me know where to send it. wish i could do more, but i'm moving right now, and i'm broke.
on a related story, my apartment burned down about 15 years ago and i lost everything. welders were putting up security bars in Santa Ana wind conditions (hot, dry, gusty winds) and sparked the whole place up. turns out they were drinking their lunch at a local bar, and people who lived in the apartments saw them there.
luckily, i got a big settlement from the welding company, but i lost everything i owned. to this day, sometimes i think "oh, yeah, i have one of those..." only to realize that "one of those" burnt to a crisp years ago.
but what i'm trying to say, is, i bounced back, and i know you can, too.